chem test was abit wtf so I HAV NOTHING MUCH TO POST BUT BUT BUT
TODAY IS MY BdAY SO IT IS NOW LEGAL FOR ME TO HEHEHE... watch NC16 movies. yup.
thx ziwei for calling and waking me up at 12 to wish me happy bday
4P for randomly singing for me
4Q for trying to taupok/rape me as a 'gift' >:( especially neo that bugger
leehe for his strange and disturbing birthday presents
louisa for being a great pal & purposely waking up at 12 to send an sms
kevinlim for calling me azumarrill -_- and making strange pokemon evolving sounds at least 3x
joanne ~the fairy queen~ for decorating the date on her pokemon calendar
jorel for letting me whack him on my birthday!! actually im not too clear if he actually let me.
tzern for helping me whack jorel
slau for making me laugh when he kena slap by jot (dun ask me how this is related, i hav no idea)
sebby for NOT REMEMBERING
and a hell lot of other ppl for actually giving a damn ^^ !
haha yay.
oh and happy birthday thomas heng 0_0
lol.
yesterday seems so far away
OKAY OKAY MY BLOG AINT DEAD YET!!!
but ever since monday, i've been feeling really sad and heartbroken, and i really don't know what to post about. i mean, to have your dream shattered by biased umpiring and match fixing seriously leaves u in shock. i couldn't even do my philo essay properly last night, i was just so freakin sad. some people say, you'll get over it after time. well. my answer is never, never. i'd never get over it in a few million years. and it's pretty damn painful to hear chinese orchestra go up to the 'podium' and give some crappy shitass speech about winning a gold for syf. wtf. a gold for SYF? you think that's really good? there's an award called gold with honours and you're so freaking proud you got a gold? isn't gold like. somewhere around 4th-5th place among all the schools, and possibly lower? get a grip. no offence to ppl like tzeern but. well i hope u co dudes actually know what im trying to say here. don't be buggers. don't be proud. you don't deserve to be. wtf.
it's damn crappy being a sportsman cos there's just no gold for you if you're simply not the first. i din say if you're the best, i said if you're the first. cos sometimes, things just don't turn out the way they're supposed to be. we're not like you musical ccas, where there's a chance of more than one school getting the gold. it's not the same for us. i can't help feeling sad and pist. personally, i don't think the pain will ever go away. im real sorry for cussing the shit out of you co guys but maybe it's jus the state im in at the moment, and maybe it's jus your arrogance. take your pick. i can't help thinking you guys are rubbing salt into the wound. and this pain is already bad enough inside.
i can't really think of anything to post about. but well. here's a song which just about sums up my feelings, even if it's not really accurate. but. ya thats how i feel right now.
"
In The End" by Linkin Park
(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when
(Chorus)
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when
ChorusI've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
Chorusi'll try to post properly next time. time to revive this blog again. and i'll still be waiting, hoping for better things to come, even though nth's probly gonna make me feel the same again.
yesterday seems so far away
