merrill's life ):

wah crap it's been more than a month since i last posted ;_; so much homework, projects, tests, exams, wth there's really not enough time to do... anything.

well i did score 10/10 for my CLE test (:

i think our class is nuts ^^ whoever came up wif intheclass softball is a genius cos its a hell lot more fun than intheclass soccer! tho sooner or later we are gonna get scrwd by tchrs but well i guess we should take the opportunity to enjoy as much as possible before we're separated and no longer 4P'07, problemclass#1. i don't really hav much to blog about this time cos i've just been stumbling through the days, waiting for the year to come to and end; not cos i don't want to see everybody anymore, but simply cos this year's packed wif bullshit and tests and i just can't wait for it to be over. damn. not that im dying to go to rjc -_- im more like wishing i could be stuck within the november/december holidays forever.

actually it's not true; i have a hell lot to blog about, such as our new bio tchr, nat&slau singing/screaming in class, and like our xcountry run/walk/wth. at the last part of xcountry i koped seetow's bayley flag and chionged to the finish line (im from moor) and i rlly hope i dont get screwed by tchrs cos i was jus doing it for fun xD tho i am pretty sure i will get into trouble for that. ohwells. we'll see. the problem is, i have no time to blog about anything at all. maybe when the chinese prelims are over -_- or whenever i have time.

thx to those who bothered to come down and tag. ><

you're not who i thought you were
& i don't need you now or here
im glad you're not by my side;
while you fade away
into the shadow of the day
i'm gonna fly;

yesterday seems so far away

anyway moses chalet was damn funny. i arrived there a day late >< and it was pretty late at night so I went to fry an egg… with root beer! I din really dare to taste it so Josh brought it upstairs and my classmates ate it ._. I honestly do hope it tasted good… I went upstairs to the room and realized my frens were basically doing NOTHING!! They were playing ps2 and bridge but were much quieter than I expected zzz ._. kevinlim moses edmund were playing Chinese chess and edmund suddenly shouted WHY IS THERE PUBIC HAIR ON THE CHESSBOARD and this started a huge commotion wif everyone arguing and laughing. I am not sure if the jiang on the chessboard can grow his own hair since he is a bloody wooden piece but weird shit happens ya? moses was accusing ppl of shaggin on his chessboard xD but I wasn’t there earlier so I wouldn’t know! (not like I would really want to…) bentay josh and nat cooked us some food which was actually pretty damn nice! Nat’s food tasted great but I just hope the cheese din come from where I think it did…

nxt morning everyone was jus spamming halo on the xbox that I had brought and we went to play para para. I must confess I am not able to perform the sissy hand actions jorel was able to ): (as in they were srsly damn girly it was pretty creepy) so I pelvic-thrusted my way through all the beats and it was pretty fine until I came to the part where there were 2 simultaneous beats and I had to admit defeat. After all, I am a normal human being wif only 1 pelvis, and moving it in 2 separate directions is definitely not a thing god had thought about. After that I went to swim and im not sure if I got sunburnt cos if u burn smth black it remains black. Ya. went to watch srcs then went out wif ziwei to watch ocean’s 13 and rushed back immediately after that for the bbq man was it great. I really shouldn’t have dumped the zippo fluid and cooking oil into the burning charcoal as there was a small boom and suddenly the whole place was flooded wif smoke and when I say the whole place, I mean THE WHOLE FKING PLACE cos everyone in the other terraces were like WHY IS THERE SO MUCH SMOKE CANT SEE NUTS (dnt ask me why they seeing nuts) WHO DID THIS!?!? We din really care so we jus continued laughing and ‘cooking’ our food. We tried to roast marshmallows but unfortunately jorel’s caught fire and mine melted off when I wasn’t looking so shibai lor -_- ditched them into the fire and watched damn burn.

then after that everyone jumped into the pool and started playing water polo, which was more like blast peng wif the water polo ball and laugh at him. We slowly spread out until we managed to kope the entire swimming pool except for the kiddy area (cos everyone zao when they see water polo ball flying at them) and like 5 times everyone was like 'eh shit what to do now' then i shouted 'RAPE PENG!!!' then suddenly you see everyone in the swimming pool splashing towards peng (okay this is abit confusing, when i said everyone in the swimming pool, i meant everyone besides peng, which is quite few i suppose) and we almost pulled his trunks off xD quite cool~ after swimming for pretty long we went to play soccer and were joined by 3 small malay boys who called us 'BROTHER! BROTHER!' and i was yelling like 'SISTER! WTH! I NOT YOUR BROTHER LA!!' and seetow was like 'CANNOT SEE THEM!!! AHBUNG AHBUNG!! BROTHER WHERE YOU!?' and we jus played soccer, shouted, screamed, fell down, shouted some more, and therefore making a big niusance of ourselves to everyone around. damn fun, wish we could have played more. when we went back, we realised that the place was still damn smoky 0_0 i guess cooking oil is one hell of a flammable substance. or was it the zippo fluid?

okay i am going to stop cos i realised this is a freakishly long post!? maybe i'll blog again tmr bout softball camp hahaha ^^ BUT ANW THE POINT IS. MY BLOG IS NOT DED ANYMORE. YOU CAN START TAGGING AGAIN TOO. WOOHOO FTW. now the nxt problem is starting on my homework.

it's been too long
and when i saw you
my heart fell, and ached;
although i once pushed you away
would you ever forgive
and start over again?

yesterday seems so far away

wassup!!! just when you thought my blog was dead!! actually ya it's pretty dead la fine but i think i am going to start posting again. as long as my life gets interesting i hope.

well before i talk about moses chalet (zz wth noah's ark), take a look at this, from blogthings.com. i hope you all hav the stamina to read till the end of this post it is srsly damn bloody long, wish i could stop halfway!!

Your Birthdate: April 27

You are a spiritual soul - a person who tries to find meaning in everything. You spend a good amount of time meditating, trying to figure out life. Helping others is also important to you. You enjoy social activities with that goal. You are very generous and giving. Yet you expect very little in return. Your strength: Getting along with anyone and everyone. Your weakness: Needing a good amount of downtime to recharge. Your power color: Cobalt blue. Your power symbol: Dove. Your power month: September

ok it doesnt take a genius to figure out that this is total crap. though it is possible i am a spiritual soul (if your soul werent spiritual you are probly quite screwed), and i do spend a good amt of time meditating (is this called stoning?) and trying to figure out life. no actually i usually spend my time trying to figure out what the heck i'm doing (which i guess is stoning). I am very generous and giving. um. ummm. im very generous in accepting gifts sounds more like it ^^. my weakness is i need a good amt of downtime to recharge. you know, if you think about it, it sounds really, really disturbing. go figure. and i don't even want to talk about the dove as my symbol plz x_x it's more like the colour i wish i could attain?

cont'd on nxt post

yesterday seems so far away

chem test was abit wtf so I HAV NOTHING MUCH TO POST BUT BUT BUT

TODAY IS MY BdAY SO IT IS NOW LEGAL FOR ME TO HEHEHE... watch NC16 movies. yup.

thx ziwei for calling and waking me up at 12 to wish me happy bday

4P for randomly singing for me

4Q for trying to taupok/rape me as a 'gift' >:( especially neo that bugger

leehe for his strange and disturbing birthday presents

louisa for being a great pal & purposely waking up at 12 to send an sms

kevinlim for calling me azumarrill -_- and making strange pokemon evolving sounds at least 3x

joanne ~the fairy queen~ for decorating the date on her pokemon calendar

jorel for letting me whack him on my birthday!! actually im not too clear if he actually let me.

tzern for helping me whack jorel

slau for making me laugh when he kena slap by jot (dun ask me how this is related, i hav no idea)

sebby for NOT REMEMBERING

and a hell lot of other ppl for actually giving a damn ^^ !

haha yay.

oh and happy birthday thomas heng 0_0
lol.

yesterday seems so far away

OKAY OKAY MY BLOG AINT DEAD YET!!!

but ever since monday, i've been feeling really sad and heartbroken, and i really don't know what to post about. i mean, to have your dream shattered by biased umpiring and match fixing seriously leaves u in shock. i couldn't even do my philo essay properly last night, i was just so freakin sad. some people say, you'll get over it after time. well. my answer is never, never. i'd never get over it in a few million years. and it's pretty damn painful to hear chinese orchestra go up to the 'podium' and give some crappy shitass speech about winning a gold for syf. wtf. a gold for SYF? you think that's really good? there's an award called gold with honours and you're so freaking proud you got a gold? isn't gold like. somewhere around 4th-5th place among all the schools, and possibly lower? get a grip. no offence to ppl like tzeern but. well i hope u co dudes actually know what im trying to say here. don't be buggers. don't be proud. you don't deserve to be. wtf.

it's damn crappy being a sportsman cos there's just no gold for you if you're simply not the first. i din say if you're the best, i said if you're the first. cos sometimes, things just don't turn out the way they're supposed to be. we're not like you musical ccas, where there's a chance of more than one school getting the gold. it's not the same for us. i can't help feeling sad and pist. personally, i don't think the pain will ever go away. im real sorry for cussing the shit out of you co guys but maybe it's jus the state im in at the moment, and maybe it's jus your arrogance. take your pick. i can't help thinking you guys are rubbing salt into the wound. and this pain is already bad enough inside.

i can't really think of anything to post about. but well. here's a song which just about sums up my feelings, even if it's not really accurate. but. ya thats how i feel right now.

"In The End" by Linkin Park

(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when

(Chorus)
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when

Chorus

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

Chorus

i'll try to post properly next time. time to revive this blog again. and i'll still be waiting, hoping for better things to come, even though nth's probly gonna make me feel the same again.

yesterday seems so far away

i know i've been posting v little and so my tagboard is becoming v stale ): but i appreciate those who actually do come down to this empty blog to tag! it shows that either you do care what i think... or you're jus a bugger with too much time to waste. o_o

i've been reading the picture of dorian gray for lit crp and it's seriously a gay book. and i don't mean gay as in difficult, i mean gay as in... gay. the book should be renamed the picture of dorian gay. or the picture of durian gay (sounds kinda cool, like a superhero! woohoo!). i mean there's a part where durian gay touches the arm of this man, whom i presume will be called rambutan gay or smth, and tells him 'let our friendship be a caprice' (i have no idea what a caprice is but i hav this feeling i don't really want to know, i might have to consult ding) and then... durian gay blushes. if that is not gay enough for you, you're probably a gay yourself. it's not that i hav something against homosexuals but the escapades of durian gay is not something i wish to completely immerse myself in -_- unless, of course, i hav a major sex op lined up for me... which i dont. ee. jus realised durian gay sounds kinda like 'captain underpants'. wth.

and i think slau is being very mean to alot of ppl who dont deserve it. lol. -_- ya most of the ppl he's mean to are nice, with the exception of a few like maybe jinghua, and kinda deserve to be well-liked. slau is nice but sometimes a bit... overreactive. i mean, yiksin is actually a nice person. if you ignore the fact that he was tryin to be a poser (for your information, im not a poser) and you ignore the external factors and jus look at his personality, it's actually not too bad. ya so slau... might want to be more accepting towards others! i mean it's fine to be mean. it's even pretty fun sometimes. but when i'm mean, i don't necessarily hate the person im suanning; i suan jotham alot but i think he's a great guy cos he's actually v nice to me when i need help. maybe he's just... confused. i suan peng alot cos he's an idiot, but he's another guy(s) whom i know is nice. i used to dislike gan, but after a year, he's actually not as bad as i thought. maybe we don't understand that being mean (as in downright mean and hating that person) could be really hurtful and insensitive and cause the person alot of emotional distress... but sometimes we should just keep our opinions of others to ourselves. it's really not too difficult to be nice if you're willing to change. i find it pretty difficult sometimes, but i think i've made less enemies and more friends. accepting others really preserves alot of friendships. and after a while... you'd get used to it anyhow. unless that person is seriously a retarded freak like jinghua, then he should be sent to a lab to be soaked in acid everyday or smth. if he were standing next to a stone, we'd probably think the stone was the smart one. that bloody fag.

zzz going to tzeern's house for english project. hope it doesn't turn out the same way as going to slau's house for lit... we spent 6 hours + doing lots of crap and didn't even touch our project. okay fine maybe we did. touch it, i mean. we touched the rubrics too. we tried to touch the screen when we played d.o.a and got badly owned by hitomi T_T like 20-0 or smth so we kinda gave up after a while. bloody hell, that hitomi is a crazy b!tch lah she kept kicking our character's... nether regions. wa lao damn unfair. we couldn't really do the same thing back to her -_-

wow what a long post! i'll try to update more often. and can somebody tell me how to put music on my blog? o_0

yesterday seems so far away

hahahaha another post wa lao my posts are becoming weekly o_0 wth. but this week had duno how many tests so i actually not alot of time. this is going to be a really short post.

we beat acsi!
we beat marists!
next match: hwa chong

i didn't perform well in the marist game so i am pretty pissed off and def going to put 1100% for the hci game if not really buay tahan alr. >< and wa lao somebody stepped on my shades, wth -_- cb.

another strange thing daniel, aka the mainstream, aka winner of the mr inside-out-condom 2007 contest said: if you turn the condom inside out, you can use as sock. this is disturbing on many levels, including size of not only foot but... ya. if you think about it, actually the idea itself is pretty disturbing anyway o_0

and something strange kevinlim said in response to my idea of 'catch the javelin' and 'header the shotput ball' for pe lesson was: we can also play medicine ball! we throw the medicine ball into the other guy's balls then it'd hurt so much, he'd need medicine for his balls. 0_o what. the. heck.

hehehe and on thursday we shouted 'WHO DOES SHIHAO LIKE?'... 'AMANDA!!!!' but i really hav no idea at all who amanda actually is. but it's fun to mess up our junior's life. serious. go try with your own.(:

today's pe lesson was damn screwed cos bentay's team played pretty violently and i got quite pist at some point and really wanted to ram someone but i didn't do it cos hiok said smth like 'wa lao merrill don't look so menacing la'. bentay did some screwed up tackle shit which injured slau's ankle and denied it after that. Will stood behind our defense and said stuff like 'theres no rule against me standing here drooling spastically and in general being a prickhead'. edmund pulled jorel's arm & whatever strange shit and jorel cried o_o as in really cried, no shit la. wtf guys... what the heck is wrong wif you all. i think the next time anybody tries to pull some violent shit (especially going for people's legs) im going to walk over and give him a punch right in the face. k that sounds pretty contradictory but sometimes it really pisses me off, especially when it's a game within our own class. especially ppl like bentay should be extra careful cos he's quite violent in almost any game we play like floorball or soccer but he doesnt realise that the only reason he's getting away with it and not getting majorly bashed up is cos people like tzeern and me don't really want to hurt or injure anyone. -_- ppl plz realise that not everyone doesnt mind playing rough.

if it were a real match, i'd join in and bring the person down but we must remember that in our class where everybody's kinda close (not the ding - gareth kinda close but you know what i mean) we should try to minimize injuries we inflict on each other >< even like onto peng or jorel.

on a lighter note... JOT IS GAY! TODAY HE GOT DISTRACTED BY SOME JUNIOR OMX LITTLE SEC1S AND 2S, COVER YOUR ASSES WHEN HE'S AROUND!!!!

that's all (:

yesterday seems so far away

okay been a pretty long time since i posted but with all the ccts and whatever sht i really didn't hav time! hope my blog doesnt die so fast x_X.

4Q a lot of ppl hav started playing gameboy and this trend was started by a particular moron called jonathan neo who bought a gameboy sp and pokemon fire red and brought it to school, and was quickly followed by idiots like ajay and (the biggest one, figuratively and literally) SLAU. i call slau the biggest idiot is because he now he cant stop playing the freaking gameboy and is like hardcoring in class and crap like that. and his pokemon keep beating the crap out of marrill. i find that really shitty >:0 i think marrill should pwn everyone else. dammit.

slau asked smth like 'how to fish!' then kevin said 'grab a rod.' then everyone started laughing. then kevin said 'seriously, ppl will giv you rods. the first rod is old rod cos it's from an old man. second one is good rod cos its from a good man. next is super rod cos it's from superman!!' i was like AHHHH -_- WTH @)#%*@%!! kevin is seriously full of retarded shit like that. he was like 'i bet steve jobs has alot of siblings' and started providing examples (for those who're too dumb, think about two-word phrases which end with job.) kevin also told me some pokemon's 'vital throw' meant grab the guy's vitals and throw, so i asked him if 'gentle throw' meant grab the guy's genitals and throw. he said 'ya, gentle is probably some bad japanese translation of genital anyway.' what the heck!!!1! today i said 'shudup you malaysian' then he said 'shudup you merrillsian' and i found myself at a loss of words as to what to counter that unique reply. shit.

then there's always jorel, who is a a piece of retarded shit. (note the difference between this and kevinlim) he said 'yes!' when i told him 'jorel i'll beat you at every test, except probably a stupidity test.' after that he thought about it for a few minutes and said 'NO!!!'. immediately after that he started laughing, and banged his head against the wall. -_- some chink in the evolutionary ladder is to blame, i guess. then today he wanted to say 'are you deaf!?' and it came out as... *drum roll*... 'IS YOU BLIND!?' 0_0!!! WTF!!! he gets stranger and stranger everyday. he even grabbed nat's boobs, and that is already really disturbing. as in. would you grab a guy's boobs. -_- not to mention that they are... triangular and jiggle when he runs. okay maybe not jiggle, more like flap up and down with wet slapping sounds (yucks). okay i thnk i dont need to say more.

wa lao today i spend one chem lesson at hiok's bench and i've realised he is damn pro. i.e. damn pro at randomly swearing whenever smth happens. today he shouted 'i never bring my worksheet to the lab! what the fk!!!' when our chem teacher was standing right in front of him. mr koh gave him some funny look and didn't say anything. i get this strange feeling our teachers hav given up on us. i was mugging SS during math lesson and mr teo walked over and asked 'MERRILL WHAT ARE YOU DOING' and i said 'reading ss notes, sir.' he looked at me and said 'i can see that.' then he walked away. o_0 v good. either our class has lost all hope within the teachers, or their bodies have been taken over by aliens who are apparently very nice. and are clueless as to what certain swear words mean. *nudges daniel lee*

wa lao the post damn long alr. i continue some other time. just some food for thought...

`Çhanky; between now and then, till i see you again. says:
i haf 6 black nipples ):

yesterday seems so far away